I love
summertime. There isn't a season I wouldn't trade for a few more months of sun,
and there's always that twinge of sadness that comes as I feel August slipping
away.
But I have to admit there's a feeling of anticipation that
comes with the cool mornings this time of year. It's the same feeling that
makes me want to buy new crayons and label things. Its school starting. Its
newly sharpened pencils and backpacks and the silly desire to give your teacher
an apple. And as someone who has been a part of this fall phenomenon all my
life up to this point, this year is starting to feel strange.
I suppose
its because I could never picture myself at this point in life. In fact when I
met my husband and we talked about our career choices, I told him I wanted to
go to medical school. It seemed like a perfectly suitable calling for me
because I liked school. And I was good at it. But then when he asked me
what kind of doctor I planned to be when I grew up -and I said that I in fact
didn't want a full time career when I grew up- I realized the real reason
medical school sounded so good to me. It was because I was used to school. I just couldn't picture my
life without it. I couldn't picture myself as a professional doctor as much as
I could a professional student. Unfortunately that isn't the most profitable of
career paths, and luckily I married someone who loves me enough to help me find
out what it really is I want in life.
And I’m lucky enough to say I think I found it. And while
it will inevitably be harder than school, it will be even more rewarding. And
though I won't be getting a report card regularly to tell me how great I'm
doing, or a paycheck to tell me how much I’m worth, those don’t add up to real happiness
anyway.
I’m not
starting a new school year but I am feeling all the excitement of a fresh
start. And, ironically, as summer dwindles and dies this year all I can think
about is new life. And you know what? I’m still waiting on that end of summer sadness.
Plus who
says you can only buy new clothes for school??
[Here’s
to new adventures.]
-MD
